Night 11.

I finished the book. It was not as great as I expected it to be. The Legacy by Gemma Malley should have been a lot 'more'. It felt hurried, as though it is just done because it has to be, you know a bit like that last paragraph of the essay, put in just to get the word count up?

Lyle wanted to sleep in my bed again. I struggled to get to bed around 11pm, and struggled to get up this morning at 8am.
I feel very fuggy lately, and fear my depression is slowly filling my head up. Is it Seasonal Affective Disorder or just plain depression? I do not know. But I do know, I am short tempered more, irritated by silly things more, and I don't like it.

Night 9 & 10

Tuesday - Night 9
Stayed up and watched The vampire diaries then I read a little and went to bed just before 12. :( 
I awoke at 9am! Thankfully Lyle has stayed at my parents adn my mum had taken him to school. I quickly got ready and got to work for 9.25. not bad, as i dont start till 9.30.
But I forgot to take the car to the garage! dang nabbit!

Wednesday - Night 10
I let Lyle watch a bit of A diary of a wiimpy kid and turned it off at 8pm. we both went and oil pulled and brushed our teeth with charcoal. Lyle has the beginnings of a hole in his tooth. so used the charcoal to try and reduce the amount of toxins in his mouth. Also increased our intake of reall animal fats in our diet - slow cooked bones to make stock and then use in as much cooking as possible.
After I put Lyle to bed, I went down satirs to read a bit more of my book, but Lyle got back up saying he had a feeling he was going to have a nightmare and could he sleep in my bed. As much as I didn't want to share my bed, he fidgets, and does not sleep with covers on, and takes his pyjamas off at some point every night too; but I let him. I miss sleeping next to him, ok I miss hanging off the side of a king size bed, miss him cuddling into me during the night, holding my hand and all the other lovely stuff your kid does. My kindle ran out of power arounf half past eleven. i didnt ned to brush the teeth as i had done a few hours early and had not eaten or drank anything else since, so straight to bed, snuggled up next to my favorite person in the world and off to the land of nod.
Not for long though.
The wind outside was horrendous.
Woke up around 8 and we where at school for 10 to 9. result.


My Elf on the shelf arrived yesterday. I had to go to the depot and pick it up. Really excited by what is going to happen in December!

Night 8

Stayed up for Under the Dome. If that was the last episode of the series, it wasn't a great ending, if that is the 'penultimate' episode, it was ok. 
I also watched an episode of The Middle. I just love that program, and so does Lyle. I suppose its his 'Malcolm in the middle' .

Somehow when I set my alarms last night, it was coming up for midnight.
Gutted that I procrastinated to stay up later, for no reason at all. Nothing great on telly, wasn't reading anything, didn't do dishes or laundry or anything.
Kept ignoring the alarm in the morning. Heard Lyle run from the toilet to his room when the 1st alarm went.
He runs to stop Lightning getting in.
When I eventually forced myself awake abt quarter past, I called through to Lyle and in he came with his star wars build-a-bear teddy that he got a few Christmases ago, and all he wanted to do was come in for a snuggle. How could I refuse that request?
We made it to school, walking through the gates as the bell went.

Tonight I went for an interview with a local solicitors. Don't know if I want the job or not. It's 20 hours a week. Every Friday 9-4 and half days Mon - Thursday.
I've found it best to be open about  being a single parent in interviews. I was also honest abt not starting 9ams. Although in this instance I said abt collecting mail in current job. I don't get much mail so don't need to. So I didn't lie, but wasn't wholesome with my reasons either.

Who knows, earlier nights might mean I'm early to school/work too.

Here is a pic of Lightning, as I just realised I have none on here.

Night 6

Saturday night, me n Lyle watched HP and the Half Blood Prince. Gordon used to say, if you hadn't read the books, the films don't really make much sense.
It's not completely true, but not far from it either.
Having never really liked the films, before I had even seen them. To recently re-reading the books (can't find my Deathly Hallows, so currently spending 2 lunch hours a week in the library) its plain to see, that the films have the same outcomes, but the journeys are very different.
Film finished around 10 and we both went to bed.
Lyle came into my bed during the night, saying he had a bad dream. He doesn't like to talk abt bad dreams at night, so I moved over and gave him room for him and his two teddies.
Next day he told me that a bully was bullying his friend in our kitchen and his teacher was there and that our cat, Lightning was walking around. Not the worst dream, but he didn't like it. So came in for a cuddle.
Im unsure if I should let him watch the 7th and 8th films. They actually are not too bad, not as bad as the books, but then, I always feel that books are 'worse', you see every death, every bad bit and every good bit. The films only show what 1 person (script writers/directors/Warner Brothers) wants you to see.
And good still beats evil. Maybe give it a few weeks .

Woke up on Sunday feeling good. No alarms set, yet we both woke before 8.

Night 7

Mega disaster. Bed for 10 to midnight :( was really disappointed this morning when I struggled to wake.
I've talked a lot of when I go to bed, but not when I am forced to get up. I set an alarm for 10 to 8. I struggled to get out for half 8. Last week when I was getting to sleep earlier getting up was easier.
This morning; it was a struggle. Forcing my eyes open, forcing myself to turn off the infernal racket that is my alarm. Forcing my feet out of bed and to make my way to the toilet... Get ready, get Lyle up, breakfast ready. Some days, add in shower for either or both of us.
Some days I have to make packed lunches, some days iron school clothes.
And we have to leave for school at 8.45am at the latest.
Some mornings are a real rush. Others, everything just falls into place.
Last week I don't remember it being hard or rushed, thus morning it wasn't either, but we did get to school just as the bell went. And I hate Lyle going in through the office. Although the office door is next door to his class, whereas the door he is to use is opposite side of school, means he is normally 1st in class if we use office door as opposed to being late from walking round and door closed and having to head back to office. We made that mistake many times last year.

Anyways, I am digressing. Last night I watched Revolution, thinking it was the last episode, then remembered that it is Under the Dome that is on the last episode of series 1. Looking forward to it tonight.
Then I hung up the washing, put away the roast chicken then bed.
Tonight I hope to be in bed at 11.
Really hope so. As I obviously need more than 8 hours sleep.

Oh yea, and I was craving chocolate. Time of month. Wonder if it makes much of a difference in ny sleep.