Thursday, 31 December 2009

Nollaig chridheil agus Bliadhma mhath ur!

End of 2009, have I achieved much?
Yes, I think I have, I finally got out of my T-Mobile employment, started a course at college, learned myself to crochet, got back into knitting, gotten into an 'ok' place with the ex regarding my son, learned myself how to cook more, applied for Uni and college for next year. lost a stone n a half in weight....

Plans for 2010:
lose more weight, ideally aiming for 5 stone, but not expecting it to come off in a month (unfortunately lol)
decide what i want to do, social work for uni or college for socal science then uni 2 years later for the 3rd year...
get my house organised more, get new wardrobes that i can actually use! get Lyle the toy storage system so he can actually play with half his toys! hopefully get a new kitchen...
de clutter more often
use up all my craft stash before i start buying more.
I should add in ''get a boyfriend'' but im not too bothered about that just now...

plans for the Bells.... well its 8:30pm, im in my jammies, my son is in his bed after a visit from my mum, im on here, about to play world of warcraft, although i am shattered, so i may end up in bed after Still Game, but then again that finishes at 11pm!

Well have a good New Year Everyone, hope 2010 brings a lot of happyness to a lot of people :)

Friday, 25 December 2009

HoHoHo 'Errie krismas!

as my son says, Errie Krisssmassss! he's soo cute! he was opening his presents today and was saying, ''this is amazing!'' and 'Santa's amazing!' - he's only 2years and 8 months old! I dont think their is one present that i got him that he was not excited about  {feeling rather smug :)}
He did end up with too much, but thats because i start in May for Christmas stuff, curse of the single parent, but then with this 'credit crunch' i supose we're all doing that these days.

so merry christmas everyone :)

Monday, 7 December 2009


ment to say, Pinocchio was fantastico!

Lyle got right into it, even tho he was shattered and every so often would tell me 'Mammy, I NEED to go home!' and he said 'Mammy I dont like boo'. Boo was the baddy, as we where all shouting 'boooooooo'

Sunday, 6 December 2009

Club Noir Christmas Party '09

Okay, its the day after.
I cant wait till Feb for the next one!

Heather and Lola

More pics to follow!

Wednesday, 2 December 2009

Fun Stuff

for end of December.
Thursday 3rd going to Pavillion up Glasgow to see Pinocchio, Lyle really excited, (my mum bought the tickets for us, im majorly skint!)
Saturday 5th CLUB NOIR! nuff said!
Thursday 10th its the Singing Kettles Christmas PJ party!
finding and wrapping all the presents, getting them delivered before christmas. that will be a struggle
around the 13th is Decorations time!

a major sadness is 22nd December, the 1st anniversary of my Nana's death, which was partly to blame for my depression getting worse, but also helped me to move on from my depression, well move through it, as Adams, Hayes and Hobson model would suggest. (Man I hate psychology!)

25th December is CHRISTMAS! i have agreed with Paul that he can come to ours in the morning to see Lyle open his presents and on boxing day i have said we will go down thier for an hour or 2! why cant i be a bitch and just say no? oh yeah thats right, cause i want my child to know his father and not just think of him as a 'sperm donor', pity Paul doesnt see that im trying to do that without it effecting Lyle!

then its HOGMANY! big up here, think ill celebrate it same way i have for past 3 years, in my house, in bed, for the bells! hahaha! big difference from when i used to go out to word up! get absolutely plastered and be sober for the bells, cause u cant get to the bar for the people! last year was different, it was my nana's funeral, so hogmany will have an added meaning this year.

Also really looking forward to catching up with my bestest friend in the whole world, even though im a shit friend!!! Diarmaid is coming home! and he's bringing his mrs with him! 1st time we will have met, saying that ive only seen Diarmaid for about 3 hours in over 3 years!!! OMG! cant wait! I need to get a babysitter as we are going out for a proper piss up! Ive not had one since we stopped going to txt for £1 drinks and buying over £100 of drinks n shots between us!!each week! sometimes every friday, saturday AND sunday!! feck knows how we have survived!!!

bit unsure...

of what type of blog I want to have....
I started it out a bit crafty, then ive sort of moved onto weight, i have even tried my hand at fantasy stories, albeit, i havnt posted it, but thats mainly cause ive already mentioned my son on here, dont want to mix those 2 areas together on the web...

so i think it may just be my 'online diary', if thats the case, then welcome to my boring world.

thats how boring my world really is!

arghh my God! Who am I?

I dont recognise myself anymore...

Its just a bit crap that I was unable to lose any weight for this (Club Noir, see prev post)  :( i reallly did try as well, increasing my steps each day, going on the wii fit a few times a week, even joined a stupid slimming group (or as i call it, fat club) Scottish Slimmers, is not doing anything for me, and its really getting me down, I hate looking in the mirror, I hate getting undressed, I hate being naked! I no longer recognise my self, its horrible! whats even more horrible is this is the only 'mum' my son knows, yes he loves me no matter what, but this is not who his mum really is!  His Mum is a UK size 12 or curvy 10, but since last year my wieght has went from a 12/14 to around/over a 20! I am disgusting! I am disgusted with myself! I cant believe I have let myself get this bad! God Dam Depression and its horrible hold over your energy, your zest for life, instead I've been 'just surviving' for over a year, but in past 2 to 3 months that has been changing, I do still have my horrible days/weeks, but the good are now outweighing the bad.
Anyways, back to this crappy fat club, its not working out, so think im going to save my money, and go to my Dr and see if they will help me.

I should point out that I did lose a stone and a half during August and mid September, but I've been stuck ever since!

This pic was taken 2 weeks into 2009 im a size 14 here, a small but curvy size 14 I might add,
This was taken start of April 2009, a big 16?

At a wedding in October 2009

Just that week I realised size 18s where just fitting and no more! And this is after I lost the stone and a half! so feck knows what size I actually went up to!

Burlesque Baby!

me and a few friends are hittin the biggest (and reportedly the best) Burlesque club in the UK this Saturday! I am sooo excited! I have ordered and recieved;

red and black corset,

black Miss Misty Frilly knickers

black and red feather fascinator,

Made my own bustle, bag, garter, chain, and jewellery to go over my forehead and through my hair a bit..
(Pics later)
ordered 2 pairs of over the knee boots, 1 has arrived and is too wee :( cant get them over my 'footballer' calfs!

other pair havnt arrived! and im stressing about them now!

Bought new make up, tried a few different styles, 1 of the girls going is just back form America, where I asked her to get some body gems - think Christina Agulera in Moulan Rouge! 

Oh really cant wait! it is going to be sooo fantastic! ive never been to anything like this before, but i think i'll really lurve it!