Thursday, 31 December 2009
Yes, I think I have, I finally got out of my T-Mobile employment, started a course at college, learned myself to crochet, got back into knitting, gotten into an 'ok' place with the ex regarding my son, learned myself how to cook more, applied for Uni and college for next year. lost a stone n a half in weight....
Plans for 2010:
lose more weight, ideally aiming for 5 stone, but not expecting it to come off in a month (unfortunately lol)
decide what i want to do, social work for uni or college for socal science then uni 2 years later for the 3rd year...
get my house organised more, get new wardrobes that i can actually use! get Lyle the toy storage system so he can actually play with half his toys! hopefully get a new kitchen...
de clutter more often
use up all my craft stash before i start buying more.
I should add in ''get a boyfriend'' but im not too bothered about that just now...
plans for the Bells.... well its 8:30pm, im in my jammies, my son is in his bed after a visit from my mum, im on here, about to play world of warcraft, although i am shattered, so i may end up in bed after Still Game, but then again that finishes at 11pm!
Well have a good New Year Everyone, hope 2010 brings a lot of happyness to a lot of people :)
Friday, 25 December 2009
He did end up with too much, but thats because i start in May for Christmas stuff, curse of the single parent, but then with this 'credit crunch' i supose we're all doing that these days.
so merry christmas everyone :)
Monday, 7 December 2009
Sunday, 6 December 2009
Wednesday, 2 December 2009
Thursday 3rd going to Pavillion up Glasgow to see Pinocchio, Lyle really excited, (my mum bought the tickets for us, im majorly skint!)
Saturday 5th CLUB NOIR! nuff said!
Thursday 10th its the Singing Kettles Christmas PJ party!
finding and wrapping all the presents, getting them delivered before christmas. that will be a struggle
around the 13th is Decorations time!
a major sadness is 22nd December, the 1st anniversary of my Nana's death, which was partly to blame for my depression getting worse, but also helped me to move on from my depression, well move through it, as Adams, Hayes and Hobson model would suggest. (Man I hate psychology!)
25th December is CHRISTMAS! i have agreed with Paul that he can come to ours in the morning to see Lyle open his presents and on boxing day i have said we will go down thier for an hour or 2! why cant i be a bitch and just say no? oh yeah thats right, cause i want my child to know his father and not just think of him as a 'sperm donor', pity Paul doesnt see that im trying to do that without it effecting Lyle!
then its HOGMANY! big up here, think ill celebrate it same way i have for past 3 years, in my house, in bed, for the bells! hahaha! big difference from when i used to go out to word up! get absolutely plastered and be sober for the bells, cause u cant get to the bar for the people! last year was different, it was my nana's funeral, so hogmany will have an added meaning this year.
Also really looking forward to catching up with my bestest friend in the whole world, even though im a shit friend!!! Diarmaid is coming home! and he's bringing his mrs with him! 1st time we will have met, saying that ive only seen Diarmaid for about 3 hours in over 3 years!!! OMG! cant wait! I need to get a babysitter as we are going out for a proper piss up! Ive not had one since we stopped going to txt for £1 drinks and buying over £100 of drinks n shots between us!!each week! sometimes every friday, saturday AND sunday!! feck knows how we have survived!!!
I started it out a bit crafty, then ive sort of moved onto weight, i have even tried my hand at fantasy stories, albeit, i havnt posted it, but thats mainly cause ive already mentioned my son on here, dont want to mix those 2 areas together on the web...
so i think it may just be my 'online diary', if thats the case, then welcome to my boring world.
Its just a bit crap that I was unable to lose any weight for this (Club Noir, see prev post) :( i reallly did try as well, increasing my steps each day, going on the wii fit a few times a week, even joined a stupid slimming group (or as i call it, fat club) Scottish Slimmers, is not doing anything for me, and its really getting me down, I hate looking in the mirror, I hate getting undressed, I hate being naked! I no longer recognise my self, its horrible! whats even more horrible is this is the only 'mum' my son knows, yes he loves me no matter what, but this is not who his mum really is! His Mum is a UK size 12 or curvy 10, but since last year my wieght has went from a 12/14 to around/over a 20! I am disgusting! I am disgusted with myself! I cant believe I have let myself get this bad! God Dam Depression and its horrible hold over your energy, your zest for life, instead I've been 'just surviving' for over a year, but in past 2 to 3 months that has been changing, I do still have my horrible days/weeks, but the good are now outweighing the bad.
Anyways, back to this crappy fat club, its not working out, so think im going to save my money, and go to my Dr and see if they will help me.
I should point out that I did lose a stone and a half during August and mid September, but I've been stuck ever since!
This pic was taken 2 weeks into 2009 im a size 14 here, a small but curvy size 14 I might add,
Friday, 27 November 2009
Monday, 28 September 2009
Then i remembered when we where down England visiting family, i purchased 2 dressing up outfits, 1 a fireman's and 1 a policeman's outfit, both come with hats that have flashing lights and matching sounds, feels like a cop-out if i use one of those tho :(
going to make ghost shape cookies to give out to trick or treaters, this time they will be on sticks and wrapped up. this is teh trial run for the christmas stock :) wish me luck!
- Lj: My boy :) a ratatouie watch, a scoobiedoo sand art box thing, a Bob the Builder sand/water table, looks brill! going to do a Christmas Eve hamper to start a new tradition, as I/we dont have any yet, in the hamper goes new PJ's, Housecoat, Slippers, small selection of sweets, a christmassy dvd, colouring in book, some playdoh(homemade)
- Coby-Leigh: this is my cousins girl, and my God Daughter: a high School Musical digital camera that connects to a p.c. to upload and print pics.
- Declan: this is my cousins son, and my GodDaughters brother, i call him my GodSon too: a Cars digital camera that connects to the p.c. to upload and print pics
- Mum: nothing yet, but possibly a hamper with some items of clothing like, funky socks, t-shirt, jumper, sweets, chocs, smelies, jar of homemade cookies n cakes. me n my sister (Lauren) are hoping to chip in n buy a laptop for my mum n dad, n we're working on my brother (Gary) chipping in too.
- Dad: nothing yet, but possibly a hamper with a few items of clothing, like shirt, t-shirt, socks, undies, chocs, sweets, and a jar of homemade cookies n cakes from Lj.
- Lauren: nothing yet! no ideas either!
- Gary: nothing yet! no ideas either!
- Granda: nothing yet, Idea is a hamper, filled with (love, very cheesy lol) a hand made thick, chunky hat and scarf, some chocolates, some sweets, some fudge, a box of tea bags, box of biscuits, a jar of cookies and cakes homemade from me and Lj.
I also have 2 others who i always buy for, my cousins Kirsty and Kerry, but i think this year im only doing them home baking from Lj, as im really skint.
Also doing 3 of my neighbours a jar of cookies, as these 3 are great, always looking out for me. they are old (over 60) live on their own through divorce or widowed, and family have moved out and away from the area. Lj will decorate the cookies himself, should be interesting :p. I need to buy the patterned celophene from the florists to wrap the cookies up before they go in the jars.
Christmas cards are nearly finished :) during the rainy days of the summer, me n Lj where painting and i drew christmas trees adn he finger painted christmas balls on them, so im going to stick them to plain card and stamp a christmas slogan inside :)
I'm starting a hat to match tomorrow.
Last sunday, 20th sept 09, i made a scarf using super chunky wool, knitted and its 15 stitches x 111 rows, its lovely n warn n think :) then durring the week i decided to use another ball of the same chunky wool to make a skinny scarf, thats 8 stitches x 221 rows... again lovely and warm and long :)
once ive done the hat, im going to attempt a wee pair of mittens for him too, all in the same patons baby fab blue wool, its an unusual blue too, so no one else will have it :)
pics will be added once mobile blogging starts to work :)
Ill try and get some of my crafty stuff on their too :)
Sunday, 27 September 2009
i think i have an abscese, i can feel the swelling, i cant get to a dentist till i register with a new one as the one i go to just now, which is not an NHS one, is crap! they have ruined my 2 year old son's teeth! we are both cow dairy intolorant/allergic, so i kept telling them to help us to increase our calcium on our teeth, and they told me his teeth was fine and they didnt need to do anything!! so im waiting on a referal to child smile, but been waiting over 6 months so far, and his teeth are getting worse :( he doesnt get a lot of sugary foods, but what i did used to do, until i realised it was worse than giving a bar of chocolate was buy/make a lot of smoothies.. he really likes them and they are healthy for u, just not your teeth due to all the natural acid :( so until his referal comes in i dont know what practice to sign up with as i want us in the same place...
totally catch 22 just now :( doesnt help that i dont like taking medicine, but im on paracetamol every few hours :( just wanna cry :'(
Saturday, 5 September 2009
I'm a single mum who is just starting to get crafty, I have recently taken up knitting after a 15 year of absence and even then I wasn't great at it. I have in the past 3 months learned to crochet, and done 6 hats for a local hospital as part of a knit-a-thon, 1 modeled by winnie the poo, and will be uploaded later.
I'm good at drawing and painting, although I havent done much in over 10 years, hoping to get back into that soon. I like drawing flowers and using watercolours and basic paints.
I recently quit my job, and started college doing an access to university and social work course. I'm an avid promoter for natural baby feeding, in otherwords, stop using milk from a different species and give your baby what they are looking for and NEED! Breastmilk - thé only milk!
So far I have finished a few projects, knitted baby cubes, filled with toy stuffing and a few bells to make it jingle, sowed felt letters on to make the babies names and given as christening gifts. 1 bootie made too big, so would fit about 18month - 24month old, 6 small baby hats, a voile curtain for my small hall window.
What I'm looking to make is a baby girl dress, a crochet blanket (I can't get it to even out!) some toddler sized jumpers and cardigans for my son, socks, and gifts.
Im just getting into cooking and baking, loving making cookies just now, practicing for christmas presents.
Should have pics uploaded sometime soon
Enjoy and take care :)